infatuation delights people

>>>INFATUATION DELIGHTS PEOPLE



thats a msn conversation between xin & i this evening.

i was raving about this cuuuuuuute junior of ours who, by the way, has a killer smile.
and the bloody beng she was raving about is singapore idol's finalist, Sylvester Sim (whom i also adore).

so as usual, this conversation went about with many long HAHAs and a lot of caps words- all illustating our infatuation.

Sylvester better go thru tonight's round of the Singapore Idol, i tell u. or the next raving session xin & i hold would be filled with grudging comments.

ok, yes i know we were insane.
bear with me, i havent been this infatuated for a while.

it's the mid-autumn festival

IT'S THE MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL

it is tradition to drink tea and eat mooncakes, while appreciating the larger-&-rounder-&-brighter-than-usual moon.
it is also the time of the year when kids play with lanterns; the traditional candle lanterns, cartooned candle lanterns and those battery operated ones.

drink tea..unchecked.
eat mooncakes..checked.
appreciating the moon..unchecked.
playing with lanterns..unchecked.

the news reported the moon tonight would be at its brightest at 2107h. unfortunately, as much as i tried, i couldnt capture a good or clear shot of it. not really my not-so-good camera's fault. the moon wasn't even big or bright.

i remember having a lot of fun playing with lanterns. not too long ago, at that; the last was two years back.

i was looking forward to snap shots of the traditional lanterns too. none of my cousins played with those. they only had those cartoon ones..battery-operated. and no, no one in my vicinity were playing with those traditional ones. my estate was exceptionately quiet tonight.

how damn sad.

so, i had to browse naz's blog to see the pictures he manged to take.
check it out: www.plain-sunset.blogspot.com
i love the first and last pictures.

there was no hype, excitement, atmosphere or mood in this year's mid-autumn festival.
how damn sad.

personal growth

>>>PERSONAL GROWTH


the title cannot get more apt, can it?
ever since nicole used this phrase on why she isnt skipping CB lecture, even though everyone else was skipping, this phrase had been appear so often now & then. as teasers, of cos.

this evening, while my oh-so-wonderful mum handstitched the petticoat under my (current favourite) red skirt, my cousin grumbled that my auntie can't do such things- she has to seek her friend's mum help whenever she wants to alter any clothe.

man, havent my mum & i talked about how mothers should know how to sew for their kids?

i was fortunate; i escaped sewing any piece during home econs class.
i do not want my daugther to talk behind my back in this way in future, and so, i told myself i'm gonna learn sewing. no, not cross stitch. u know, using the sewing machine..to alter or to make additions to my clothes.

so i started with the loose buckle on my black skirt.
hand stitch, of cos. a step at a time la. i thought it was a good start, or so i hopeD.

i pulled the thread too hard, it snapped.
mummy doubted my ability and offered to help.
i refused to give up.

success.

mum finished stitching that part of my petticoat before i finished attaching that one third of the buckle back. nice, anyway.

mummy is a great seamstress. she made her own wedding gown; a very gorgeous, cheong sam cutting dress (how cool is that?). she made a couple of my skirts. she editted plenty of my clothes.

~

like a little kid, refusing to lend her precious teddy, mum took her beloved monkey back from my cousin, ho (why? "cos the arm was already coming off"), and carried it to the drawer.

i knew what was coming: the needles and thread.


so, today she even stitched an arm of a monkey.
mum expressed her regrets of not buying the bigger version of it.

she paid $69 for this, mind u. just cos , in her words, "it looks very sad."

thank goodness mummy won't get to read this entry. she refused to let me upload the first picture, "how can you publicise a picture of me in my specs so low!"

my mother has become lamer & lamer by the day. but i still love her. in fact, i love her very much.

~

next up: (get this huiliang) im gonna learn how to cook.


i'm in love with lin jun jie's jiang nan.

and so, i ponder..again

>>>AND SO, I PONDER..AGAIN

its been 2 weeks, and i'm still feeling it.
i can't stop wondering how things might be different if i had hold on for another 4 days.
just 4 days.

its not just how much i still feel,
its not just how long i wished it would last;
its the pitiness that it might have lasted longer.
a lot longer.

after all, it started off well.
damn well.

i really can't stop wondering.

and now, i can only forever read our dialogues.

~

some things that happen in life, ill never understand but i have that assurance that my life is in Your hands.

JB revitalisation

>>>JB REVITALISATION

this evening, i had a heavy responsibilty- i had to keep awake to wake my sleeping friend..everytime the car infront move by a foot.

the jam between the malaysia & singapore custom was so bad, it was putting all of us to sleep. you know how horrible it feels to be woken up for a few seconds, after having an eye shut for a couple of minutes. and thats when you're really tired. poor fabian.

the best thing was, chun (the other guy with the license in the car) was asleep too. so, there was no one to relief fabian from the wheel.

thank God for smes to keep me awake: thanks nax, eddie & rey :)

and so, chun finally woke up and took over the wheel.

as much as (to quote fabian)'i like looking at prices and think that i'm getting a 50% discount', JB is getting boring.

months back, we would go in for loong hours to shop & eat; it has detoriated to going in just to fulfil a purpose (previously, we went in just for naz to cut his hair).


i need to find new things to do in JB: eddie says he'll bring me go-karting next time to revive my JB enthusiasim. exciting.

at least today i did different things and went to different places.

~

shawn kept me awake tonight by shocking me- he told him that from my brother, he found out my chinese name. during that mere few minutes my brother log on to my msn account.

how sly! (shawn: i know ure reading this..haha)

and so, they're now in each other's msn list. insane- my friend and my brother are now friends.

hocus pocus!

>>>HOCUS POCUS!

venue: Singapore Poly Plaza
date: 15 sept 2004
time: 10am to 5pm
stall no: 19
stall name: hocus pocus- DMC 2A01's fortune telling store.


and so, hocus pocus was a success!
kudos to joanna for coming up with this idea; and to nicole who was such a fantastic fortune teller. impromptu, at that!


nic.


the 3 bogus fortune tellers- naz, me & farena.


in case ure wondering what we were wearing, it's some head band that is supposed to make us look like convincing fortune tellers. as u can tell, it's not at all convincing la. at least, not us..



& stupid naz thinks that we looks like transverstite wearing the head band. but what's new to him?



another stupid pose of naz's.
p/s: its a spider on his head, not his dreadlocks.


ok, we didn't make money, neither did we break even. in fact, we gave out about 10bucks. but oh well, its all for the fun of it. at least, we received alot of SINCERE TESTIMONIALS!



*aahem* our SB director, Mahin.



DMC course coordinator & IPRA tutor, ms low



ms kwa (our vain ptn- the amount of times attempted just to take this shot is scary) & ms nga, our MNIT tutor



ms fenton, our CB teacher


and so, our dear jo & xin suggested making hocus pocus OUR copyright for fortune telling in all of SB's future flea markets.

~

as fast as i didnt see the flea market approaching, it's gone.

i don't know if we were too busy with the seeming never-ending things that are revolving around that i didn't even realise how fast time flew by.

it's already mid-september. the one week holiday has ended, the new term has began.

the trip to the zoo

>>>THE TRIP TO THE ZOO


i finally found the time to put up the pictures taken at the zoo.

its been at least 10 years since i last went there. after months of planning, my class finally made it there, with our PTN ms kwa. no, it aint lame- its nice to relive your childhood :)

we were there from 9am to 4pm last thurs(9th sept). 7 freaking hours looking at animals. and i'm not an animal lover.



khai, bishe, me & naz
i looove this pic- it makes me look fair! :p
yes, this is about all those who went (plus xin, the photographer, and ms kwa who has left).



naz & i.
looks like we're in some resort eh? seletar reservoir at the back drop, it actually is.



as many should know, im not an animal lover. but, i adore big cats!



especially white tigers


lion


leopard


CUTEEE!



check out the ears of the "cat". sharp- weird!



monkeys are adorable too!



my favourite- chimpanzee!


celebes crested macaque


baboons- ugly, and they really behave like humans! scary.



another ugly monkey- mandrill.
they look really similar to baboons, except they have purple asses, instead of red!


ok, some of these pictures are quite gross- check out their erected dicks. i don't know how i managed shots of such obscenity. naz said its the mating season. ah!



overall, i would say the trip was pretty fun (at least to me), though i was realllllly dead beat from zouk-ing the night before.

~

sentosa, next. minus the beach please.

the thought of the day

>>>THE THOUGHT OF THE DAY

Nic's msg: "Today's horoscope readings: Quit any leonine roaring you're doing, set aside pride and listen to your deepest thoughts about love, giving yourself a few moments of quiet will let them bubble up nicely."


In reply, "i did that before your msg. i felt the need to do that so so badly. i gave myself time but i dunno what should i think about to make myself feel better."

no, its not just about him.

vulnerability & senstivity is getting the better of me; my pms is due this week.

the end

i recalled:
the anticipation i had,
the excitement i felt,
the overwhelming feelings i contained;
i'm perplexed by how it has fallen so fast.

And so, this is the end.
it's harder than i expected.

it's the thought that counts.

>>>IT'S THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS.

it's been long since im in town on a saturday night. in fact, it's been long since i had the time to just chill.

standing amidst the crowd in orchard road on a saturday night, i actually felt lonely. this, inspite of parting with a friend just 5mins ago.

as i observed the number of couples around, i thought about the phrase 'it's the thought that counts'. indeed so.

it doesnt matter if things cropped up; what matters is the thought to compensate.
it doesnt matter if things went wrong; what matters is the sincerity in your apologies.
it doesnt matter if other things prioritise; what matters is the fairness of them all.
it doesnt matter what others have said; what matters is whether your actions justify.

action speaks louder than words.

~

when things go beyond our comprehension, it's best to let it be.

i just feel like shutting up

>>>I JUST FEEL LIKE SHUTTING UP

i refuse to believe the hypocrisy, pretense and selfishness in people. i cant fathom what lies beneath the facade of people. its sad when it dawned on me that i shouldnt perceive humans as all that good-natured.

these few weeks had been really hectic. almost all of my energy have been drained off and my smiles have worn off.

on top of the endless deadlines and politics, i still need to find the energy to keep those issues off my mind.

those issues that i still can't find the actual problems or solutions to. bits flowing in and out, in absolute disorder, that i don't know where to start from. my mind is in a whirl; i'm still confused.

i'm tired, and have been moody too much; i just feel like shutting up.

for one, i know i need a sign, badly.

send me answers to my questions.

~

it's the 3rd, and i'm home again.