The only time I go with my heart, I end up feeling miserble

With most of my friends still lovey dovey with their few-years boyfriends & a couple already married, I'm quite ashamed that I'm still at a changing-boyfriend stage.

Depressingly, the new Him & I had already gone through many many fights. No denial that there're many many countless happy times but with the heartaches I go through daily these months, I no longer know if I'm cut out to be a girlfriend at all.

Even though I love him to bits.

I would like to call my tolerance towards all these & my desire to have a lasting relationship, maturity.