Sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed

i know i am over u.
still, i liked seeing u.

occasional chats made me smile,
as i recall how we used to be.

memories flowed back continually.
but i didn't pine for you that way.
i knew things are not the same anymore.

when the topic of you was broached by your friends,
i thought the avoidance of the topic was necessary.

nothing was said, nothing could possibly be assumed.
yet, i was.. avoided, somehow.

perhaps they were pure coincidences.
perhaps perhaps perhaps.

perhaps sensitivity got the better of me,
but i'm left puzzled by your actions.

*

We don't even talk anymore
And we don't even know what we argue about
Don't even say I love you no more
Cause sayin' how we feel is no longer allowed
(Boyz 2 Men - Water runs dry)

Nobody Knows

Directed by Kore-eda Hirokazu


Yagira Yuya as Akira

the movie was considerably slow moving for my usual likes but it was able to retain my attention for the full 140mins.
it was extremely heart-tugging.

despite his single-eye-lid eyes, i was very swooned over by this young actor (Yagira Yuya). not cos his looks, honestly. what really struck to me instantly was the selflessness of Akira, and his awesome display of brotherly love.

selflessness; how often can we see that?

the movie puts me in Akira's position, lets me feel for the siblings and left me not knowing what and how to comment.

i commend then-13 year old Yagira for his excellent performance in his debut movie. it was a worthy Best Actor win in Cannes.

im not a slow-movie, nor a Japanese movie fan but i recommend this movie.

BACK TO BLACK

i just can't resist going back to a black scheme for my template.

i simply love black. and simplicity.

CHRISTIANITY & SEX

"While continence is still the general recommendation, some Christian churches believe it is best to leave the final decision on the degree of sexual involvement to the discretion of the individual believer."

Sex & Religion by Chritel MAnning & Phil Zuckerman

IN CELEBRATION FOR NAZ'S 20TH

Singgah Selalu serves cheap, decent food.
for ten people, RM190 is cheaaaaap.


this is one of the best chocolate cakes i've ever tasted.
& it was bought from Malaysia. i applaud it; it was really damn good.






Farena's 'fascination' with Desmond.


"Where's Farena?" (adaptation from "Where's Wolly?")
no prizes for guessing whose terrific idea.



no one wants to look in the same direction as Naz.


on the way home.

notice the fading smiles in the pictures.

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for the record: with MY camera, Farena was the one who took the most pictures. she is probably making up for missing plenty of our other sessions.

it was a good day at JB.

A CERTAIN FEAR

i'm pretty happy with how things are going on in my life at this moment.
it's been 2 months since i've been less lonely.

come this thurs, the 20th, it may very well be the end of this refound old-happiness.

as much as i had previously sworn off this arrangement, i'm actually still undecided on what i really want, so i don't (or, cant) have issues about how things have been going.

come this thurs, the 20th, things may very well change as it marks the start of a certain confinement again.

a week before the 20th;
in all honesty, the fear of the possible end of this old-happiness that i have refound is surfacing.

what makes you happy

>>>WHAT MAKES US HAPPY?

"It isn't what you have or who you are,
or what you are doing that makes you happy, or unhappy.
It is what you think about."

Dale Carregie

so, 2005 begins bad.

so, 2005 begins bad.

'warehouse' was barren; phuture was over-crowded, and their music was bad.

at those times when i had almost anticipated for a certain person's presence, it didnt occur.
yet when it finally happened, at an unexpected timing, the need for avoidance surfaced. not once or twice but thrice. just the availability to see from afar had always been suffice for me.
it was anguishing to realise how awkward the meeting was, yet i didn't want to miss those captivating eyes.


*

when hollers begin in the morning, proceeding with the astonishment of some irresponsible pushing of blame, it totally pull moods down. And, when things are not getting better yet, the night had to end with being cursed at.

talk about the need to stay happy more this year.