A CERTAIN FEAR

i'm pretty happy with how things are going on in my life at this moment.
it's been 2 months since i've been less lonely.

come this thurs, the 20th, it may very well be the end of this refound old-happiness.

as much as i had previously sworn off this arrangement, i'm actually still undecided on what i really want, so i don't (or, cant) have issues about how things have been going.

come this thurs, the 20th, things may very well change as it marks the start of a certain confinement again.

a week before the 20th;
in all honesty, the fear of the possible end of this old-happiness that i have refound is surfacing.