what you've done?

>>>WHAT YOU'VE DONE?

 
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's coming from my heart:
When I realise there's no telling lies
So I'm gotta let it burn.

 
I think about it when I hold you
When I'm looking in your eyes, I can't believe.


Baby, I don't wanna know.
So I just kept it to myself. 


Oh, look what you've done.


(extracted from my 3 present favourite songs: Burn by Usher, I don't wanna know by Mario Winans, Look what you've done by Jet)

black blond

>>>BLACK BLOND 


its been long since i saw my hair in its natural colour. albeit my new hair colour is contrasting to my previous,i like it.
 

siang yew's sms: What do you call a blond who dyed her hair black? "Artificial Intelligence."
 

that riddle is not exactly smart(even joanne rolled her eyes at it!!),but it really is the wittiest thing ive ever gotten from him..whether it is via sms,msn or face-to-face conversation.


i don't quite like what he was trying to say; or at least what i suspect he's trying to say.
& i believe i wasnt the only one who suspects that way. .right xin??
irritating.

 
but anyway,to all who suspect too,its just siang yew's attempt at something witty. plain that. nothing else.

embarking on my 19th

>>>EMBARKING ON MY 19th


as much as i dislike people walking on cycling tracks,cyclists & bladers breaking abruptly,i love cycling along East Coast Park. lone cycling,that is.


i love lone cycling cos it gives me time to be by myself & time to think things(this is also the reason why i love long bus rides).


the thought of today: how have i lived my past half year of 2004; the hates & the likes.


- shopping.
- a fruitless attempt at a relationship.
- some noise at home.
- excessive dates.
- some broken friendships.
- some lost friendship.
- more shopping.
- weekly gym & steambath sessions.
- sinful chocolates & ice cream indulgences (dammmmmmn).
- hateful excess kilos.
- feeling off-ish often.


+ shopping.
+ an embarkment of a hopeful relationship.
+ peace at home.
+ excessive dates.
+ reinforcement with some existing friendships.
+ many new friendships.
+ more shopping.
+ weekly gym & steambath sessions.
+ sinful chocolates & ice cream indulgences (aiyah,we need it la).
+ increased interest in automobiles, growing fondness for 2-wheelers.
+ plenty of laughters.


as i approach my 19th,i asked myself if i want to live my another year 'accomplishing' similar mundane things as this year.
no.
yes,i had my fair share of fun but thats not enough. i want to be more mature in my thinking & perceptions of things(as much as i kinda hate to admit,i don't need my looks to mature any further). i want my life to have more meaning.


let's hope one year from now,my 'accomplishments' would differ significantly from today's list.


~


this evening,i realised what an eye-person i am. especially to guys.
through the lenses of my sunglasses,i saw plennnnnnty of cuttteeee guys. and i wonder why all the cutes gathered at East Coast Park today.
my head turned a good amount. even roaming on the very crowded streets of Orchard Rd on Saturday afternoons dont have such power. i'm serious.


then i realised. 9 out of 10 of these cutes were wearing shades too. i bet u that when i see the same 9 guys,without their shades,i would say only 2 are cute. sad,sad sad case.


ok,i shall give the guys some credit lah. there were a couple of cute guys,without shades today.
guys,i'm sorry if i sounded bitchy in any way..i can't help that your eyes are attractions to me!


happy birthday,sherry.
have a good week,people.
i miss you,honey.

"this is what best friends are for?!"

i marvel at the time i got home last night. it was barely 1am. on a SATURDAY.
all because joanne & i wanted to avoid paying the midnight fare.

after shopping for 8hours non stop,we stopped at mc cafe & ate a lot of fruits (from isetan supermarket) & sundae float from mac's. yes yes,topping on your ice cream in your soft drink is a crazy combination but try it,its surprisingly good. not joking.

those 4hours of chilling was one of my best ive ever had with joe, alone. i realised that we both havent just chill together in a loooong while.
we occupied the best seats, with others giving us that evil stare. we laughed like hell, loudly. we bitched. SHE acted like a total bimbo.

because the people around us all started buying fruits (from the supermarket), i said,
"they're influenced by our fruits."
"maybe because they like our breast." (we were both wearing plunging necklines)
"huh?"
"what i meant was the shape of our breasts."

i still dont know what has our breasts gotta do with the others buying fruits.
another conversation scared me further.
"i loooove bunnies. their drooping ears so cute!"
"yeah,guinea pigs."
"hmm? bunnies' ears very cute hor?"
.
.
.
.
"*enlightened* OH, u mean they aren't the same?!"

everyone already knows how slow joe is.
needless to say, i didnt bother going into a detailed explanation with her. besides, i was too busy rolling my eyes to reply further to either of the conversation topics.

& she still has the cheek to call me bimbo number1! what the hell.

nevertheless, i love my best friend.

smile like mona lisa

>>>SMILE LIKE MONA LISA 
 
xin:  i hate hearing things from best friends. they make u think!   


because best friends' words can mean a lot to us,they can cause us to think a lot. too much. positively & negatively. 


'How often a misused word can generate misleading thoughts'. 
so much meaning in this quote by Herbert Spencer.  
  
something was quite weird tonight; we felt it. 
im now positive that its nothing much actually; sensitivity probably got the better of me. 
my dreaded pms is due this week. damn!

why hint? ask.

>>>WHY HINT? ASK.
 
i do not get hints(even if i do,i might pretend i didnt).
i do not like people beating around the bush,
or even asking through a third party.


i dislike pretense,so ask me direct.

since your existence

>>>SINCE YOUR EXISTENCE
 
towards them,
i used to make excuses
or oblige. 
 
now i plainly reject,
gladly.
this,albeit fearing boredom.

inexplicable. 
  
darling,beware. be very cautious..it's burning.

females..NS?

>>>FEMALE..NS?


during legal system tutorial today,we learnt that in the past,girls were regarded as "things"; meaning girls always belonged to a man. either her dad,husband or elder brother.


as much as ladies have fought against this & won,the thinking of the past still exist in some. somehow,this is the relation to why girls are exempted from the caning system in Singapore. something like the "owner" wouldnt like his girl caned?


xin & i realised that we aint the only ones who think the same way about feminism.
ms philip said what we've been wondering for a long time: why is it that although we believe in gender equality,we still believe that there're certain things guys 'are supposed to do'.


like i still believe guys should ask girls out,and its only gentlemenly that they OFFER to pay for our meals/movies(going dutch is of cos not a prob at all!)..and even down to the simple task of pulling down the overhead screen(right,xin?). to me,this plainly reflects on how gentlemanly a guy is; it is not exactly stereotyping.


pretty interesting when the point that "since we believe in equality,girls should therefore do NS too" came up.


yes,we believe in gender equality,but thats in terms of our opinions,freedom & respect. BUT,we do not deny that girls are indeed weaker..PHYSICALLY,so we do not agree that guys & girls should receive equal physical training(like NS) or punishment(caning system).


contradicting? not exactly.


~


Seeing michelle & diying after so long certainly feels good. its a pity that fang,wen & ken cant make it for dinner (again). im no longer disappointed or surprised though.


it must be the chilli from my dinner. my throat is killing me. i need some lozenges!

some enthusiasm is good!

>>>SOME ENTHUSIASM IS GOOD!


most of the time,it feels good meeting up with old friends.


it's been long since we met up with hwai yee..its heart-warming to know that things are still the same.
we managed some attention from the patrons at gelare,not cos we indiscreetly bring non-gelare food into gelare,but because of our loud laughters & eye rolling crappy-ness.


& i thought neo prints are stuff that we were enthusiastic about way back in lower sec,but today farena's enthusiasm proved otherwise. we actually walked from far east to heeren just to take neo prints from THAT particular machine she so like(& this is after we took a multi-shot at a machine in far east)! we were the only people who looked above 20 there. scary.


its another day off school tmr. its gonna be the second wednesday off since school started last monday. dammit,im so gonna wish all my wednesdays will be free.


my enthusiasm extends to tomorrow afternoon,when all classes will cease by 3pm in the whole of SP. :)


p/s: (naz dear & xin:) it will soon be farena's turn to start on the memoirs of a geisha..finally. say,a week? i managed to read in the bus today,without falling asleep.
shanghai baby,here i come. i hope.

dmc 2a01

>>>DMC 2A01


i love the camaradarie of my class,albeit most of us have a love-hate relationship with our class joker(or joke),naz darling aka xin's baby.


my case; i hate his quivering lips when he imitates jay chou,bsb,ANY r&b singer....in fact,just whenever he sings. i hate his lameness,childish acts like kicking my lecture chair non-stop,& his attempts at 'witty jokes'. and of cos,him insulting my ass,or labelling me as a bimbo 24/7.
but..but..but,in all honesty,even with these points,i actually love naz. seriously.


i love how almost the whole class go for breaks together(sometimes to the other side of sp). i love how 01 is sociable only within ourselves..it may seem pathetic but at least we're a lot more united then e other dmc classes :)


reality has set in.


i haven't slacked in citylink,bugis,suntec & orchard,or think of going into JB in 2 weeks. 2 freaking weeks.
lectures & tutorials are starting proper tomorrow..the new school term has began.


a huge sigh.

the start.

>>>THE START


i finally signed up for an account,after days of procrastinating.


actually ive never seriously considered blogging,until a couple of days ago. i was so bored that i was searching for blogs to read. i even dug into naz darling's archives. yes,that was how bored i am.


xin says that i should start blogging to keep me out of boredom..& the best thing is,i dont even need to update regularly. i like that. so here i am.


melodrama: A drama, such as a play, film, or television program, characterized by exaggerated emotions, stereotypical characters, and interpersonal conflicts.


how apt. i still believe that everyone wears a facade. even details in blogs may not be true,or at least,some details are definitely left out.


my friday was good. i was anticipating for that day for close to a week. :)