how many times has my pride got in the way?

a tad too many.

friendships deteriorated, relationships spoilt, kins frustrated.
self-anguish but ego-fed.

and it didn't occur to me until zac brought it up.

*

today, my pride got in the way again.
yet, self-reflecting is detriment to my mood.

damn it.

i need help!

>>>I NEED HELP!




Naz has been obsessed with the word sud. (style, in terms of attitude). If anyone hears him say he is so sud, please go with it. Make him happy.




Of late, Naz has been mean to me.

Anyway, can anyone teach me how to extend my attention span; I can't afford to fall aslp again & again everytime im doing work- exams are coming!

And also, i need help to be more gentle with my things.

*

i'm going for a creative mp3 player, despite everyone at simlim saying how lousy creative products actually are. enlighten me, anyone?

how does one function?

>>>HOW DOES ONE FUNCTION?

its been yet another hectic week and it won't end today; deadlines won't be cleared until next fri.

one man's incompetency leads to another's frustration.
with two more same-group projects deadline to meet, i do not know how to handle.

and within less than a week thereafter, its the start of the exams. 5 papers all in a week.

young boys these days

>>>YOUNG BOYS THESE DAYS


benjamin, my 4 year old cousin, is a potential buaya.


during dinner at granny's church last night, ben kept walking to and fro; his eyes fixed on the other table.. on the pretty young lady, i mean.

my bro had to say, 'im bringing you to see girls' for ben to follow him.

this morning in church, ben was exchanging glances with yet another young lady. he even want to the extent of unwrapping his sweet and feeding her.


and he ain't camera shy.


posing at my first request.


his suggestion to a pose.


young boys these days.

what on earth am i here for?

>>>WHAT ON EARTH AM I HERE FOR?

tonight is the first (of 6) meeting of my church's 40 days embarkment of 'A Purpose Driven Life'.

i must admit my initial reluctance of putting my name down in this campaign.
why? i honestly dread such discussion groups, especially when it involves my spiritual self.

at the Yeo's house, i was looking out for Yeo's drinks, or at least things associated with the drink, but nah. quite disappointing.
(i do mean i was in the house of the founder of previously-known Yeo Hiap Seng drinks)

i had a scare when i got hold of my group's list.
one of the members was my secondary school principal, the other is a lecturer from my school of business (& knowin SB lecturers, they would make DMC students express their views) and the son of the host was my sunday school teacher- the class which i was really slacked in.

how awkward.

albeit i was my usual quiet-shy-& not-too-expressive-about-my-opinions self, the session was actually alright- enlightening with fresh opinions, leaving me with thoughts to ponder about.


i do aim to find out what on earth am i here for so i'm sure ill be going back there again. 5 more weeks of small group sessions and 35 days to go.

Rick Warren's THE PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE
albeit the book may be written for everyone, every Christian should read it.

¬

today, i missed a hell of a damn good shot of a maserati, lambo & ferrari stopped side-by-side at a traffic light junction just in front of des' car.
i could have taken a satisfying still or video shot of those road-planes with my samsung (don't talk about the canon). OH, DAMMIT.

those rich bastards' were making a hell lot of noise with their near-a-million-dollar 2doors . but i like; nice. i bet they havent had the chance to shift to gear 3 before halting at the next traffic light.

im finally getting my samsung back tomorrow.
as much as i enjoyed using the fm stereo & message counter functions in my mum's nokia, 4 days is adequate for me to detest its lagging-ness and bad camera colour resolution.

my anticipation wasn't hidden through the phone conversation with the samsung customer service executive, who called to inform me my phone is ready for collection. she had to giggle at my excitement.

im finally getting my samsung back tomorrow.

my best friend

>>>MY BEST FRIEND


03/10/2004
18:58:15
h u i l i a n g.
joe is who

h u i l i a n g.
oh oh oh ur best fren sorry

s h a r o n. 我只能永遠讀著對白
hahaha
nvm la
wait til u see her
nxt time u wont forget her name
hahaha

h u i l i a n g.
u shld say tt to her.


as eye-rolling that msg is, i told joe anyway.
& (GASP!), joe actually got it instantly. INSTANTLY.

after a good laugh, i decided to give my suspicions the benefit of doubt- that joe is NOT farena number 2, who is always laughing at the wrong stuff.

i confirmed with joe. she got it right. WOW. (sorry dear, i just have to do this :p)

yet when asked if she likes fried wanton, there was a really long pause.
why? cos she had to think what fried wanton is.


ah! my best friend.