WHEN A HOBBY BECOMES AN OBSESSION

I like lone shopping so no one can deter my buys and I can take my own sweet time choosing my stuff (til the shops close), and walking from one end to the other end of Orchard Rd. The fact that I go past town from work to home, or that I live two MRT stations away from town definitely plays a big role.

I realised the hobby has become an obsession.

These days, I often feel the need/ urge to go shopping and would reject all appointments just to do that, alone. And yes, the weekly Sunday shopping with mum still carries on.

The convenient excuse of 'I need that' has become an overused one.

Spending hundreds on 16 tops, 3 cardigans, 2 dresses, 1 jacket, some accessories, a gown, 1 clutch and get this, only 2 shoes (at least the bags & shoes obsession has subsided, for the moment) in less than 6 weeks is a problem. I had to free up a drawer and a rack of older clothings to contain them but the next morning, mum brought over some clothes I left at her cupboard previously; clothes I never knew I owned. Now the cupboard and rack are filled.

I snigger when I read of Compulsive Shopping Behaviour but am now thinking if I'm near to that already.

At the moment, I need stop-shopping therapy. I need to start saving money for my holidays. Good friends, please dissuade me when I next say I like something.

NEXT STOP?

I'm left with 4 and half weeks to the end of internship. It seems that it only gets better towards the end. Amidst plenty of mundane work, the occasional events and programmes has given me much insights of this PR line. I realised that my course of study is really relevant and is close to PR work. My interest in this line is affirmed.

After the busy busy busy week-long Asian Aerospace event in two weeks' time, it will mark the end of my internship.

My cousin once told me that if you do something for 40 days consecutively, it'll become a habit/ routine, and you'll start doing it naturally. After 8 weeks of work (this week), my longest working period ever and my first office job, I'm starting to think if I will feel lost after this. What a scary thought.

My initial thoughts of further studies have been shelved; I shall work first, following Ms Low's advice- we should work first, to gain experience and to know what you want to do/ study.

But, I know for sure, I will procrastinate working for a while; the thought of working full-time terrors me.

Well, at the moment, I shall look forward to the visible plans - the all-dressed-up-for wedding, Vietnam, (pending) trips to Europe and a couple other cities.