moments of contemplations

>>>MOMENTS OF CONTEMPLATIONS


consumer behaviour- checked. mass media research- checked. e-commerce- checked.
3 papers down, 2 to go; legal system contracts and organisational management.

i'm in the midst of my exams and im feeling every bit as though i'm on my vacation.

the past week had been tedious, albeit fruitless- travelling to & fro school to try to study, falling asleep really early (the moment i read the notes) & waking up in the middle of the night in attempt to read the notes again.

i finally used the Internet today, after a solid one week of abstention- an amazing feat!

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many a times, in retrospection, we fall in the state of psychedelic. we ponder: perhaps that something shdn't have gone this way; how would things have turned out if it had went that way instead; how would my life be now if that haven't happen; was i too rash? did i make the wrong move?; is there anything i can do about it now?

why. if only. it should have been. it shouldn't have been. how. what can i do now.

almost all of us secretly wish everything would turn out just the way we want.
and the way we want may not even be possible (anymore). this, despite, being surrounded by many other options and all of them are, hmm..not too bad or better.
put it this way, almost all of us are seldom satisfied with what we have, & we are always on the continual search.

i'm so guilty of this.

i prefer to call what has been flashing in my mind as memory recall, but as i totally hate to admit, it might also be called regrets (as naz puts it).

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Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right

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Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way

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like a clown, I put on a show.

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'nuff said for now.
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